Today makes week 34 and 4 days.
Most of the time I feel pretty beat up. Trouble sleeping and moving, getting (and staying) comfortable, trouble eating much, reflux is acting up, everything is sore, can no longer sit in recliners for long, backaches... you get the idea. The toughest part for me is that all the things I would normally do to soothe myself are off-limits... I can't eat comfort food. Can't get up and distract myself, can't stretch. Just have to lie here in my discomfort. But usually at least once a day I have a brief time of feeling half-way decent. Which I am grateful for. I'm taking advantage of just such a time right now!
I am trying to be really present for all these moments, to remember their purpose and to remember how fleeting they really are in the great scheme of things. And while I know that this period of exhaustion and frustration will help me welcome labor when it comes, I am in no rush. The longer these babies stay put, the better off they will be. And so it goes. The first sacrifices of motherhood.
Here's hoping we get to Thursday for another update from the doctor!
1 comment:
Gosh, Jenn. Wish there was something I could do or say to make things a little better for you. You are right in trying to be present for all the moments and to remember their purpose. This really is one of the sweetest and most special times of your life. Keep on keeping on. I am so proud of you and am still thinking of you lots!
XOXO
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